perspective

There are times when I get caught up in stupid things. Time when I make arguments that aren't going to matter. Then there are times that put everything else into perspective.

As many of you know my little sister has Down's syndrome. However, through everything that has happened to her she kept a great spirit and a great relationship with God. I have always said that she is a better Christian than me. Recently though, she has been a bit more reserved and eventually stopped wanting to be with people. Her joyous disposition had been replaced with fear and an intense urge to be alone. God has become an afterthought as opposed to the passion it once held.

This past week, Heather was diagnosed with schizophrenia. I don't really know what all this consists of completely and I'm still a little numb to be honest. My sister has been my world for a long time. She is the true love of my life, and when I watch her hurt it tears me apart.

Today orthodoxy and worship styles don't seem very important. Today all of my logical answers to the problem of pain are useless. Today grades and graduation could not matter less. Today I hurt.